Flagitious Idiosyncrasy in the Dilapidation

Oh, how you are grindcore.

Beauty (Revised)

So lately all I find myself listening to again is Black Metal. More specifically Atmoshperic/Ambient/Melancholic/DS Black Metal/Doom. And I really just feel like listing a number of bands, more so than anything in the hope someone reading this may decide to check a few out and realize there is much more beyond the common misconceptions.

Abyssmal Sorrow (Australia) - Funeral Doom
Agalloch (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Alcest (France) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Algaesthesia (Poland) - DSBM
All the Cold (Russia) - DSBM
Altar of Plagues (Ireland) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Amesoeurs (France) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Ancient Tundra (Canada) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Ancient Wisdom (Sweden) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Anti (Germany) - DSBM
Apati (Sweden) - DSBM
Arctic Plateau (Italy) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Astral Luminous (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Au Sacre Des Nuits (Brazil) - DSBM
Aura HeimiS (Chili) - Funeral Doom
Austere (Australia) - DSBM
The Austrasian Goat (France) - Funeral Doom
Autumn (Russia) - Doom
Autumnal (Spain) - Doom
The Axis of Perdition (United Kingdom) - Dark Ambient
Bann (Germany) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Battle Dagorath (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Before the Rain (Portugal) - Doom
Benighted in Sodom (USA) - DSBM
Burzum (Norway) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Caïna (United Kingdom) - Post Black Metal
Canis Dirus (USA) - DSBM
Carrion Wraith (Canada) - DSBM
Clair Cassis (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
ColdWorld (Germany) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Cry of Silence (Greece) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Csjethe (Canada) - DSBM
Daylight Dies (USA) - Doom
Deep-pression (Poland) - DSBM
Depressive Years (USA) - DSBM
Dernier Martyr (Russia) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Dødheimsgard (Norway) - Avant-garde/Ambient/Atmospheric
Doom:VS (Sweden) - Doom
Drained (Canada) - DSBM
Drudkh (Ukraine) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Dysthymia (Iceland) - DSBM
Elffor (Spain) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Ethereal Beauty (USA) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Exiled from Light (New Zealand) - DSBM
The Fall of Every Season (Norway) - Doom
Falls of Rauros (USA) - Atmospheric/Folk
Fen (United Kingdom) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Feos (Germany) - Ambient/Shoegaze
The Foetal Mind (France) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Forest of Shadows (Sweden) - Doom
Forest Stream (Russia) - Doom
Forgive Me (Jordan) - DSBM
Forgotten Woods (Norway) - DSBM
From The Sunset, Forest And Grief (Mexico) - DSBM
Frozenthia Depresis (France) - DSBM
Funeral RIP (France) - DSBM
Grey Waters (Australia) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Gris (Canada) - DSBM
Hanging Garden (Finland) - Doom
Happy Days (USA) - DSBM
Heretoir (Germany) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Hypomanie (Netherlands) - DSBM
Hypothermia (Sweden) - DSBM
Ildjarn (Norway) - Atmoshperic
Inborn Suffering (France) - Doom
In the Woods... (Norway) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Inverna (Switzerland) - DSBM
Katatonia (Sweden) - Doom
Kauan (Russia) - Doom/Post-Rock
Lantlôs (Germany) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Leichenstätte (Germany) - DSBM
Les Chants de Nihil (France) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Les Discrets (France) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Lethian Dreams (France) - Ambient/Doom
Lifelover (Sweden) - DSBM
Livsnekad (Sweden) - DSBM
Longing for Dawn (Canada) - Funeral Doom
Lurker of Chalice (USA) - Atmospheric
Luror (Germany) - DSBM
Lyrinx (United Kingdom) - DSBM
Make a Change...Kill Yourself (Denmark) - DSBM
Marks of the Masochist (USA) - DSBM
Means to an End (Belgium/USA) - DSBM
Midnight Odyssey (Australia) - Atmospheric
Mirkwood (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Mirrorthrone (Switzerland) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Miserere Luminis (Canada) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Mordheim (France) - DSBM
The Morningside (Russia) - Doom
Morthond (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Mournful Congregation (Australia) - Funeral Doom
Mourning Beloveth (Ireland) - Doom
Mourning Dawn (France) - Black/Doom
Nachtvorst (Netherlands) - DSBM
Nae'blis (Sweden) - DSBM
Nahvalr (USA) - DSBM
Nashehrhum (Italy) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Negură Bunget (Romania) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Nekrasov (Australia) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Niflheim (Canada) - DSBM
Nihil Nocturne (Germany) - DSBM
Nocturnal Depression (France) - DSBM
Nortt (Denmark) - DSBM
Nyctalgia (Switzerland)- Ambient/Atmospheric
Nyktalgia (Germany) - DSBM
Officium Triste (Netherlands) - Doom
Paysage d'Hiver (Switzerland) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Pensées Nocturnes (France) - DSBM
Peordh (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Petrychor (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Poccolus (Lithuania) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Raventale (Ukraine) - Black/Doom
The Ruins of Beverast (Germany) - Ambient/Atmospheric
S:Cage (Korea)- Dark Ambient
Saturnus (Denmark) - Doom
Self-Inflicted Violence (United Kingdom) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Seul. (France) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Shape of Despair (Finland) - Funeral Doom
Shining (Sweden)- DSBM
Shyy (Brazil) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Sieghetnar (Germany) - DSBM
Silencer (Sweden) - DSBM
Sobre Nocturne (Sweden) - Doom
Solefald (Norway) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Soliness (Germany) - Ambient/Shoegaze
Sombres Forêts (Canada) - DSBM
Sterbend (Germany) - DSBM
Sterbenzeit (Italy) - DSBM
Suffocate for Fuck Sake (Sweden) - Ambient/Post-Rock
Sui Caedere (Canada) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Suicide Solution (Germany) - DSBM
Summoning (Austria) - Ambient/Folk
Thränenkind (Germany) - DSBM
Todessehnsucht (Germany) - DSBM
Todtgelichter (Germany)- DSBM
Through the Pain (Germany) - DSBM
Thy Light (Brazil) - DSBM
Thy Repentance (Russia) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Toil (USA)- DSBM
Tomhet (Canada) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Total Negation (Germany) - DSBM
Trancelike Void (Belgium) - DSBM
Trauer (Germany) - DSBM
Trist (Czech Republic) - DSBM
Ulver (Norway) - Atmospheric
Underjordiska (Sweden) - Atmospheric/Viking
Velvet Cacoon (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Verdunkeln (Germany) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Vinterriket (Germany) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Vordven (Finland) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Vorkuta (Hungary) - Raw DSBM
Walknut (Russia) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Wedard (Germany)- DSBM
Welter in Thy Blood (USA) - Black/Doom
While Sad Spirits Around me Stroll (France) - Ambient/Post-Rock
Whispers From a Dead World (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Wigrid (Germany) - DSBM
Wilds Forlorn (Netherlands)- Ambient/Atmospheric
Wodensthrone (United Kingdom) - DSBM
Woe (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Wolfshade (France) - DSBM
Wolves in the Throne Room (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Wongraven (Norawy) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Woods of Desolation (Australia) - Raw DSBM
Woods of Ypres (Canada) - Black/Doom
Wrath of the Weak (USA) - Ambient/Atmospheric
Хлад (Russia) - Ambient/Atmospheric

People Are Getting Better

"It's alright (can't see), it's okay (I'm scared),
ask me about tomorrow (can you get there?), only here today.
And as for next week (what if), as for next year (you're gone?),
give the future my regard (I can't see you), you know I'll be here."

They say people are getting better, people are okay,
but you see everything can be narrowed down to the truth behind it,
you just gotta know where to look, gotta know where to find it.
They say they built a pawn shop right on the spot where the devil fell,
cause even when you're broke, you still got something you can sell.
Hell the guy up on the podium says he sells truth, but you can smell the politics on his breath.
He's been doing too many shots of taxes and death.
There's a guy on my street corner who says he sells freedom.
He'll even give me the needles if I'm broke, if I need 'em,
But you see I know what i'm missing, so I ain't gotta try it,
because freedom ain't freedom if you gotta buy it.
But I have no grand plan for the great escape.
And even though I've got a pretty decent cape in my closet,
when I rip open my shirt there's no 'S' on my chest.
I'm no Superman. No adopted bulletproof saviour of the earth.
I'm just like everyone else I have to be slapped on the ass at birth,
but for what its worth, I'm more like Clark Kent.
A journalist of the humanities that tells it like it is,
and right now I'm telling you we live in a world where Darth Vader reminds us "This is CNN".
But even Darth Vader stuttered when we heard about those kids who turned their school into a shooting range.
And the whole world sat by like a baby in a shitty diaper crying out for change.

"It's alright (can't see), it's okay (I'm scared),
don't ask me about tomorrow (can you get there?), only here today.
And as for next week (what if), as for next year (you're gone?),
give the future my regard (I can't see you), you know I'll be here."

But what about the grade ten dropouts with grade two reading levels that play russian roulette with guns they found on their playground whispering "...don't worry"?
Even if it does happen it will take less than a minute because I guess the word funeral still has the word 'fun' in it?
And in order to reassure ourselves we listen to people because people say people are getting better.
People are okay.
But if you look outside your window, the children aren't playing marbles or jacks.
They're vengefully stepping on cracks to break their mothers backs when they can't have their way.
Sure, people are getting better, people are okay.
And we send our children running towards the future as if the futures gonna be the place to be.
And all we can see is the hope bleed out of their eyes as they look up to see the airlines plummet from the skies.
And they run past a young girl in a small cubbyhole of corroding cement cause she doesn't run anymore.
See shes already dropped out of the race.
And in case you couldn't tell just by looking at the lesions on her face,
she hangs a cardboard sign around her neck that reads, "I have AIDs, please leave me alone".
And the kids pour more quarters into the phone and cry into the flat line of the dial tone when mom and dad say, "No, you can't come home".

"It's alright (can't see), it's okay (I'm scared),
don't ask me about tomorrow (can you get there?), only here today.
And as for next week (what if), as for next year (you're gone?),
give the future my regard (I can't see you), you know I'll be here."

And they say, people are getting better, people are okay.
But I can only say that none of this is okay.
The world is not okay.
And I'm no better than anyone else.
I'm looking for answers stumbling around in the dark curling up like a question mark because I don't know what to do.
But I know you have to care about the world,
because it doesn't care about you.

Mercy Misses You

Mercy says she ain't gonna come around here no more,
says he's gone past the point of no return.
Mad at her in the heart, I'm afraid of the dark,
hidden in the corner.
Over here look at me, I am over here.
Mercy says she ain't gonna think about it no more.
Thinking about it hard enough to make him disappear.
Windy thoughts, clouds of rage,
when you're feeling stormy on a calm, clear day.

If it can't be now,
then how soon is when?
Hold on tight everyone,
we're gonna do it again.
Not just a memory,
that was the best part of me,
so how long to miss me,
how long to miss me?

Listen to your footsteps,
think about that history.
Remember they found her crying inside the teller of our reality.
Mercy says she ain't gonna come around here no more.
Can't say I blame her.
Can't say I don't listen through the door.

And at night I often think about direction,
right after happiness just before my imperfection,
there are windy thoughts,
clouds of rage, when you're feeling stormy on a calm, clear day.
A friend with some advice said forgive and forget,
bury it in the past man, and I haven't been back again.
A friend told another friend to listen to their hearts,
and ever since they made that stand they've never been apart.

If it can't be now,
then how soon is when?
Hold on tight everyone,
we're gonna do it again.
Not just a memory,
that was the best part of me,
so how long to miss me,
how long to miss me?

Not just a memory,
that was the best part of me.
So how long to miss me,
how long to miss me?

Resumes

Locked within the shallowest moments of reverie, a sense of self may still be born anew. Spirits uncompromised by the tedious emotions of a brutal reality shall witness both the gravest of fears, and the most genuine of self discovery.